another reminder

Here I am, facing another end that doesn’t seem so far anymore. I am now in my fourth college year, 2012 better be my graduation year. Looking back at the years I’ve spent here at ITB as an Industrial Engineering student, I realize that there’s not much I’ve achieved. I feel like I’ve missed many chances, including the chance to improve myself, to fix it. I feel like I have wasted so much time for things I can’t even remember, probably because they’re not to be proud of.

I have never been a high achiever. I am easily satisfied with mediocre achievements although sometimes I said to myself “you haven’t tried hard enough, be better next time” when I realized that my efforts were nothing compared to what my friends did. But then, words remain words. No real action has ever been done to make them come true.

A friend of mine told me that college is a place that’s meant to build your way of thinking, your character, the way you live your life. If that theory is true, then I have a problem here. For almost these four years, I haven’t really pushed myself to be a better person, to not repeat the same mistakes, to not let myself get left behind, to achieve more. Those things I have done (or have not done) in the past have built me into the way I am today. I am that lazy person who loves to waste as much time as possible and regrets it later.  It has always been that way, since I can remember. And now I regret that I’ve regretted to many times and no significant efforts have been done to fix them. I am left with so many questions about my own capability to make it through, later, in the future.

However, I still believe that it’s better late than never. May be I don’t have much time left and that’s why I should just get going, instead of whining about all these stuffs. I guess so. To you, readers, who might feel the same as I do, good luck to you. Good luck to us.

 

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